What I miss the most in my split-second, turn your world up side down is the small pleasures like the quiet moments at home having dinner together, and falling asleep after dinner with Judy holding my hand, the Sunday afternoon rides, stopping at Dunkin Donuts for coffee. Again, the small pleasures.
The Summer days of working outside, cutting the lawn, and Judy standing on the porch trying to get my attention over the sound of the lawn mover to ask me "What I wanted for dinner?" It was always spaghetti! A cherished memory! The food shopping times when we would go out to dinner first and have a quiet dinner. I miss those times!
During the first couple of weeks in November 2005, I lived at the Hospital where Judy was. Was I scared..... I was more bewildered and confused of what had happened. A stroke, what is a Stroke? It will be four years in November 2009 since it has happened. People say, when life deals you lemons, you make lemonade. I can say I have made a lot of lemonade every day,
The Anxiety which is a friend of lemons, has gotten better. I don't go to places that I have no idea why I did in the first place. I guess you could say "The bad days have gotten better"
My life has changed dramatically, in terms of priorities. The lawn is not so important anymore. It gets cut when it gets cut. What is important is our family, our friends, all of the people I have met who have helped me, who have inspired me, who support me and have continued to be at my side during the bad days and the good days.
And most of all, the love of my life, my wife who gives me my strength, who is my soul and inspiration, and I know Judy would do the same for me, (for you, for me) and "This I Swear is True"